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Being in love is just like in a battle. A battle with our own selves. We made mistakes. We get mad over things. Even over little things. Exploded even. Through that, we get to find ourselves. We get to know us even better.

Since 2014, I have been battling with my inner self. I've been so bad to myself until I couldn't recognize it anymore. I got upset, unhappy and I cried easily. I want things that were not for me. I was selfish. I was arrogant. I did bad things that I regretted doing it. I always do. I repented for my mistakes over and over again. Just because, I kept repeating the same mistakes. I am bad.

This journey of life I'm taking now, is part of meeting myself, the best of me. InsyaAllah. Allah loves the sinner. And one day, when I look back, I will see me, smiling at my best self and say, "You did it!"

With all the things happened, knowing and fall in love with someone I shouldn't, I never regretted it. Knowing him is the best thing happened to me and the best lesson I've ever learned. Leaving him, was the best decision I've ever made in my life.

But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you;

And perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you.

And Allah knows, while you know not.

Al-Baqarah: 216

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