Tangan, Mulut, Mata, Pipi, Telinga, Hati

Tangan

Tak pernah penat menaip dari pukul sebelas malam sehinggakan dua pagi

Tak mengapa, asalkan tuan empunya suka kata tangan

Mulut

Tersenyum tiap kali mendapat notification Skype atau Hangouts

Gelak yang terkeluar dari kerongkong tatkala si dia membuat lawak jenaka

Mata

Malam yang terisi dengan webcam di antara si dia

Tanpa suara yang terkeluar

Hanya melihat ragam masing-masing

Tak pernah jemu

Pipi

Merah tiap kali di puji

Malu agaknya

Tak pernah di renung sebegitu rupa

Tak pernah

Telinga

Petikan gitar yang jauh kedengaran setiap kali dialunkan

Alangkah indahnya malamku diiringi selalu

Menenangkan hatiku

Hati

Girang mengenali seorang insan yang menepati citarasa ku

Mungkin cinta dan katanya bukan

Musykil aku dibuatnya

Tapi yang ku tahu ku rasa

Dia menyentuh hatiku tanpa aku melihat wajahnya terlebih dahulu

Tangan

Cepat-cepat mencapai telefon mudahalihku

Kadangkala menunggu, kadangkala pantas melihat notifikasi baru

Mungkin si dia menghantar mesej di Skype atau Hangouts

Kosong dan bukan dari dia

Mulut

Terkumat-kamit marah pada mulanya

Bertanya kenapa dia diam tanpa khabar

Ya, aku menunggu. 

Setelah lama menunggu, mulut penat hendak berkata-kata lagi

Mata

Laptop dan telefon ku lihat

Pedih ku dapat

Pada gajet itulah aku dan dia berhubung

Kini ku pandang kosong

Air mata tak pernah penat mengalir

Ya, aku rindu. Sangat.

Pipi

Merah bagaikan dicubit

Lembap dibasahi air mata

Tak sempat kering, mengalir lagi menuruni pipi tembamku

Telinga

Terngiang-ngiang mendengar notification

Kadangkala tidurku dikejutkan bunyi seakan notifikasi Skype dan Hangouts

Terus kucapai telefon

Wifi aku Off dan mustahil ada notifikasi

Oh! mimpi agaknya

Hati

Kalau dikira

Sejak aku tahu kebenarannya

Hancur luluh hanya Allah yang tahu

Kalau diikutkan hati yang lumat ketika itu

Mahu aku lari sejauh mungkin

Tapi aku lemah, tak berganjak

Aku menunggu

Mungkin berharapkan si dia sudi melamarku akhirnya

Ya, Aku hancurkan hatiku demi dia.

Aku menunggu yang tak sudi dan tak pasti.

Apa yang pasti, hari-hari kelamku pasti berakhir.

InsyaAllah.

Dear my beloved Bro,

I forgave you since that day. But I will never forget.

-NNF88-

Heart and Hand

Heart.

It is located at the center of our chest.

The heart pumps blood through all over our body systems. 

It is also where you put things (literally), memories, moments and many more inside it.

Some say, men put memories inside their brain.

While women put their memories in their heart.

As for man, it is easy for them to erase all the memories because brain couldn't let the memories stay longer. It will soon be forgotten.

But the memories in the heart, will stay there forever. 

It will only need certain time to ignite the memories back.

Falling in love. 

The best moment in our lives. 

Feels like this world is ours. 

We keep the people we love in our hearts. 

Close to our chest.

Man hugs woman and keep the woman's ear close to their chest.

Because they said, "my heart beats just for you."

At the time, woman's heart goes flutter.

Fly to the moon then came back.

Why the heart beats fast when we saw someone we love?

Is it because we are destined to be with them?

Is it because the man or the woman are meant for us?

Or is it just because merely attraction?Admiration?

The heart.

Sometime we love, some other times, we hate.

We, ourselves couldn't understand our own heart.

Why?

Stop reading for a while and think.

It is because, our hearts is not belong to us.

It belongs to the Creator.

We've been strayed enough. Going back and forth searching for things.

Chasing things.. people are not meant for us.

Mind is tired of thinking the way out. 

But the heart too foolish to stay.

Every heartbeats should belong to the Creator, not towards the creation.

Admire the Creator not the creation.

When someone broke our hearts. 

We cursed them.

We cried.

We screamed. Shouted even.

We swore we will never fall in love again.

But again, we forgot. 

The heart is not ours.

The feeling of love.

It is ignited because the Creator wanted it to be.

If not, the person we love right now, we will never attracted to them.

We will never marry them.

For all this time, we love the wrong person.

We put them at the wrong place.

In the heart. Which is belong to THE ONE.

When we found our mate.

Don't forget that they also will not last longer.

Don't get too attach to them.

In no time, they could've been taken away from us.

Hand.

10 fingers. 

Built up by 27 bones.

Strong. Not like the heart. Just tissues.

We used our hand to pick up things, throw it away.

We barely remember what we did a few hours ago using our hand.

When we touch things with our hands, we feels the texture.

Touched something sharp. It'll cut us.

Bloods coming out.

But the hurt will be forgotten once it dried out.

The heart is one while hand got 10 others.

Attachment to the heart will cause diseases while attachment to the hand will cause little damage.

Put the love to the Creator in the heart while love to others in our hands.

Easy to let go. Because once again, it'll only cause a little damage.

A gift given to the hand is easier to handle but the heart, once it get too attached, quite hard to let go.

Put the love to the creation in our hand not our heart.

When the love to the Creator is in our heart, we will love ourselves more.

The Creator is the Giver of the gift.

It is totally fair to put the Giver in our heart rather than the gift itself.

When we are given a gift

We are admiring the giver, not the gift.

The Giver should be in our heart while the gift is in our hand.

The gift can be put aside easily.

Choose then. The Love of the Giver or the love of the gift.

The heart and The Hand.

The eternal love towards the Creator should always be in our heart.

The love towards the creation should always be in our hand.

Stop confusing ourselves.

Stop hurting ourselves.

Stop breaking the heart which we did it ourselves.

Seek the eternal love.

Keep the love of the creation close to us but not in our heart.

-inspired by Reclaim Your Heart by Yasmin Mogahed-

-NNF88-

Life

Making life decision is the hardest thing we will ever made or made.

We are at a junction where we need to choose what is the best for us to do..to decide

Whether it is about job, family, ourselves or even love.

It will always the hardest part.

Making life decision takes time

Time for us to heal

To move on

To step away from things that stopped us before

Making life decision will take us to some place that we never expected it

What stopped us, what makes us stuck at the same place for a long time

Sometimes, it teaches us to move our feet.. move on

Sometimes, we stucked in a moment where we don't even know when to move or where to go.

Simply stucked in between.

That's when then we felt so broken.

Feels like screaming but indeed, we screamed internally within our soul.

But the worst part is nobody feels it.. nobody knows..

We struggled with our soul been beaten

Life decision comes to those who are brave enough to face the days.. 

To face the people that hurt them

With a smile in their face

It's a decision where the hurtfulness of the moment we stucked

Making us stronger, braver, shinier, full of hopes.. even at times, our tears just shed out without we noticed it

Face the days with stronger YOU.

We know we will

We ALWAYS FINE

-NNF88-

The Beauty of South Korea Part I

Actually, I have been to Seoul, once in 2012. Because of my friend asked me to join them, so, I was willingly to follow them. For this Spring trip, we went to Seoul, Jeju Island and Busan. Been there about 12 days. Not enough if you want to explore the places. Always not enough. So, down below is photos from my view. It is much more beautiful to see it with your bare eyes. South Korea is beautiful, minus the culture of 'plastic generation', quoted from someone I knew who hates the culture so bad. Hahahaha.. not gonna blame him. In my opinion, most of the Korean, are so obsessed with plastic surgery. I witnessed it myself while travelling and sneaking around the places. Even people from other country came to South Korea just to have their face fix. Hmmm.. no comment. So, enjoy the photos.

*Panasonic Lumix TZ8 and Samsung Galaxy S3*

edited using Vsco Cam app

Namsangol Hanok Village

Ihwa Mural Village

Flowers blooming in front of Gyeongbokgung Palace ^^

Street performance by victim's family of Sewol ferry's tragedy. They ripped my heart just by watching the performance. 9 victims still under the sea. According to the translator at the site, he said, the government stopped the search and rescue of the Sewol's victim without any explanation why they were doing it. The family of the victims and those who concerned felt that they are been cheated and something fishy is going on.

On behalf of Malaysian citizen, I felt that, we need to do this kinda event for MH370. Until now, we still didn't get the answer behind everything that happened. 239 passengers need justice and answer. I hope one day, people are more concern of what's happening around them.

Sewol tragedy, only 9 victims couldn't be find. But MH370, none.

Always fond of cat

Bukchon Hanok Village

Another street performance by cute boys. Cute eh? Nahh..

 one of my favourite photos of Cherry Blossoms

(B&W)

Yeouido Hangang Park

The sneaky one..Geram!!!

Cat Cafe Myeongdong

Someone who knows me well must know that I am afraid of height. To be at the top of Namsan Tower, we need to hike or by bus or by cable car. So, before this, I took a bus to the top because I, you know it. But this time around, I took cable car. It was funny, jaw-dropping moment for me. It was easy actually. Just close your eyes and imagine that you are on the ground. No. Just kidding. I'm sweating despite of 9 deg C temperature. Hahaha..

N Seoul Tower 

*freakingly freazing up there*

I don't know what this tree called. But it caught my eyes. This tree located at one of the Oreum (Volcano) in Jeju Island. We went there with our guesthouse's owner, Lefthander Guesthouse. The tour is free for Monday, Wednesday and Friday. The owner is so humble and their hospitality is one of the very best.

The trees mostly are Torreya Nucifera. I love trees so much. The trip really worth it if you like trees and forest. Best visited on spring I guess. Because the weather is just nice. I hope one day I could trail this forest again with my beloved one and kids.

Bijarim Forest

I think everyone loves lighthouses. I love lighthouse. Why? Because of they are strong. Storms came. But they are still standing strong. The more they ages, the more they are beautiful. They give light. They give direction to those who searching for land. Searching for somewhere to stop by. I just love it.

Sehwa Beach, Jeju Island

Forest Trail from one of Hallasan hiking trail

Made by scraps and the head of the bike was inspired by Predator

Cars covered by gold coin.. real gold coins.. Unbelievable?? Believe it..

Beware of this guy. He took photos all the time. ??

Ripley's Believe it or Not Museum

A While

Heyo

Have not been updating the blog since I was out of the country for 2 weeks.

There's so much to share but don't know where to start. Maybe I'll jump here and there while writing about it.

Much love,

NNF88

Dried

Dried leaves, flowers and trees.

Always do catch my attention.

The colors.

It's brittleness.

will be continue....

Rose and It's Thorn

Nowadays, I love Roses. Firstly, they are beautiful.

 Secondly, they are easy to take care of. 

As we know, it has thorns. Beautiful but yet, protected. 

Let's be that kind of human being.

If you know what I mean ^^

Writing

I love to write. Using pen. On a journal, mostly. I write about my feelings usually. Currently, I've been writing towards someone who will married to me, in the future. Yeah, I'm a hell of hopeless romantic. Call me crazy or whatever. That's just me. Lucky him, huh. LOL

I don't write everyday. Because I'm a moody person. When I feel I want to write, I write. If not, it could take months without any writing in the journal.

Nowadays, I love to write poem. Inspired by Lang Leav. And someone. That someone told me before, I am full of emotion. I should write, that someone said. So, as per say, I wrote a bit. As we can see from previous posts. I wanted to pour out of my emotion in kind of words. But not every emotion can be said and put into words. For me, action shows more than words. Agree or disagree, it's on ourselves. No biggie.

I'm sorry if my writing is full with grammatically wrong. I will improve it from time to time. Just bare with it. On the other hand, I have a bit of this ambition to be a journalist. Anything except sports, politics, business or other boring things. I am more into travel thing. So, I hope one day, I'll get to do it.

These few weeks, I've been played by my own emotional. That's really confusing. But I am grateful that I have been chosen to experience those kind of feelings. Thank You, Allah (I am a Muslim, btw). To make things simple, I am in love with someone I am not suppose to be in love with. We could say, I WAS! It's not that I don't love that someone anymore but I want to keep far away from my heart. Everyday, I woke up from asleep, I wish I never met that someone and never been in that situation. It's hard for me. The hardest thing that happened in my life, ever. But, let's take it positively. It's one of the things that taught me how to be more careful and don't let my emotion take over my mental. I'm fine. I'm gonna be fine. It'll take time to heal, indeed. These few months, my life was not on the right track. Mentally abused by my own emotion. At times, I couldn't control. Feels like screaming, kicking, running away from here. But, life must goes on. Isn't it? The world is so wide. Why I keep holding on to someone who will never turn his back on me? That someone moves on, but why I keep waiting? Am I so dumb? Yes. I could be really stupid when it comes to love. It just maybe I needed attention from someone. But I don't realize, that everybody around me, is paying their attention to me already. Every human beings need to be love, need to love. I believe, IT IS NOT THE TIME. My time will come eventually. Just wait patiently.

To that someone, you are one of the bestest thing that ever happen in my life. I loved you before and I will like you afterward. No more crossing the boundaries.I wanted you but I don't need you. What we always wanted, not always gonna be the things we need. 

"Love doesn't mean need to be together"

-NNF88-

Falling in Love

Falling in love

You said

It's not love that I'm feeling

Love means so much thing

But I know

What I feel is real

Even now

Or the first time I told you

Or even before it

Falling in love

Without any force

It just came and ignited inside me

I always feel the tingling

Whenever You are around or not

But I know

What You told me is not real

Even now

Or the first time You told me

Or even before it

-NNF88-

When I Started to Write

If..

If I leave this world

Goes to the heaven

Will You know?

If You leave this world

Goes to the heaven

Will I know?

The grievest part of the unknown

That it is

We will never know

If I leave

Just know that

I never stop loving you

Never

-NNF88-

Awesome Yard I Have

Thanks to Mama for the awesomest yard ever. 

She loves to garden.. So am I. Lucky her anyway. :)

More Flowers

My Favourite so far ^^

I took many macro photos but these 2 are my fave.

Enjoy it while you can..hulhulhul..

Black & White