Wah!
Assalamualaikum WBT.
It's been awhile. Really. *dusting off my blog*
A lot of things happened these past few months. Happiness.
Sadness.
But still, I am thankful for everything.
I finally graduated. Yay! Alhamdulillah.
Yesterday was my birthday. Dec 10th. Really. This year brought a
lot of thoughtful meaning to my life. I am really really thankful.
Finished my project paper. Been to Mecca and Medina for my first
umrah. It was really a blessed event. Everything happened for a reason.
That person also started to talk to me back. I don't know what
Allah planned for me.
But when I think back, with his coming back, talking to him, it is
a mistake.
It doesn't benefit me at all. It makes me drifted away.
What made me want to stop study before, HIM.
When I decided to stop talking to him, everything falls perfectly.
Should I stop forever?
Months ago or maybe last year, I was afraid to stop, because I was
afraid I had no one to talk and to share things with. But when I stopped, I felt
free and less 'puffy eyes'. Haha.
There were so many times I doubting myself, what is exactly
that I gained after I know him?
1) I started to know myself more.
2) Alhamdulillah. I started to be close to Allah. I astrayed for
so long.
3) I could differentiate people who are honest and/or just
basically want to be with you for their benefits.
4) Sometimes, when people are used to lying, they are not gonna
stop. They will never stop. If they are not lying, they will just make excuses.
5) A cheater will always cheat. If you are brave and strong
hearted, stay and play along. The show might be really interesting. Wait for
the jaw-dropping moment that the cheater will make.
6) This kind of person doesn't deserve someone who is great by their side. But just pray that this cheater will change someday.
I don't wanna lie. I do miss him sometimes. And it hurts me like
crazy. I caught myself in between. Sometimes I am too soft and fall for his
words.
On the other hand, I am as hard as rock.
