Give Up

I always wonder how it feels to give up on things we hold on for so long. Let go is the other words for it. By letting go or giving up, will I end up hopeless or lost or the worst could be, depress to die?

No. I'm not gonna die. But the aching hurt inside me will always be there. I always thinking of giving up or quitting my study. Always. Everyday, I will cry just by thinking about it. How I hate it? Why did I further study anyway? Why?

I came across someone who asked me, what did make me depress, unhappy and sad everyday? Without even having a second thought, study and relationship. I hate studying and I can't be with someone I love. It kills me everyday. I thought I will get immune by it everyday.

He said, "Just hold on to it. Only 3 months left." What if I fail again? Allah taught us to never give up. Because His mercy is beyond anything in this world. I can't give up now. Soon, I will find my happiness.

I will keep fighting it. Whether it's for study or relationship. I have to keep in faith in Allah. I can't be depress. I just can't. Not now.

-NNF88-